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|Posted on September 28, 2014 at 9:00 PM|
Anyone who knows me knows that this has been one HELL of a year for me…
Well...Not quite a year yet…but still a HELL of a year... And somehow through the heartaches…disappointments…and fears… I have now found myself at this weird place in my life.
I was having a conversation with one of my best friends; he and I go way back to when I was 17 years old and a new freshman in college. Anyway, I was telling him about this weird place that I currently find myself… I guess if I had to describe it...it would be the calm after a really bad storm. He told me that I was finally at peace…
Hmmm…peace…I like that…
But somehow I can’t help but wonder is this we call happiness? I know what it’s like to feel happy but I don’t think until now I knew what it was like to be happy... And I can honestly say that for the first time in my life…I’m happy.
Through all the pain, bumps, bruises, and tears…I look back and I don’t know why I was so upset losing the things that did not earn the right to be part of my world to begin with. I think the tornado, followed by the hurricane, and then finally the tsunami was the Universe’s version of spring cleaning. Sometimes it takes drastic measures to get us to discover our selves, without all these storms in my life I would have never become the person I am today. I would never have the new friendships that I have, or re-discover relationships with long lost family members, and I wouldn’t be sitting here with the biggest smile on my face…looking forward to an ice cream date.
I think life gives you lemons, not to make lemonade, but to make whatever you want with it. Why make lemonade, when you can make so many other things with it. Why limit yourself to the boundaries of what everyone expects from you, or what you even expect from yourself. I’ve decided to take my lemons and make the impossible…possible…and leave the World wondering how I did it.
~xoxo Sincerely Yours, Nerisa
Categories: *My (Nichiren) Buddhist World*